WHERE DID MY VIDEOS GO?! THE RAT KNOWS!

i find it irritating as fuck that i'm being forced to upload all of my damn videos of me learning how to walk again at the courage center. ALL of them were deleted a while ago. i just assume it's because elon muskrat is a greedy dick who enjoys taking advantage of the vulnerable- also like courage kenny (formerly courage center). so i'm just putting two and two together because i uploaded them back when i was still wasting my time at courage kenny but i found them mysteriously DELETED a few months ago. so when i've been reposting the videos- i always get some of my facebook friends that probably weren't familiar with me attending there a long time ago complimenting me on walking. i'm 95% ambulatory and the only reason why it's not 100% is because i tend to lose my balance sometimes still and i use a cane to assist me in walking so my legs don't get so tired. i'm pretty ambulatory- i have my four-wheeled walker just in case shit happens because i tend to have bad luck in life. it just annoys me because stupid facebook is just enabling people's negligence to me and i get the idea amanda assumes i'm still wheelchair dependant because she doesn't care enough to keep contact with me. everyone else more than likely just assumes i'm not capable of doing a lot of tasks just because of what they seen on facebook. people just assume shit about me because it's easier than actually taking the effort and finding out themdamnselves and ASKING ME. plus- those fucking videos are at least TEN years old. the last time i wasted my time at courage kenny had to be over TEN years ago. every damn time i've been ordered to have physical therapy (like after my last surgery), i ALWAYS stress that i DON'T want to attend courage kenny.. so they're always scheduled at health partners clinics. i'm pretty sure everyone who ACTUALLY cares about me know that i'm no longer attending courage kenny because they take advantage of vulnerable adults who are unadvocated for JUST so they can make money off them. they don't let a client progress in rehabilitation unless they have advocacy, so the advocacy can stroke their dicks. screw all the vulnerable adults without advocacy! NO ONE CARES ABOUT THEM, SO WHY SHOULD WE?! another reason why i completely refuse to waste my time doing the same old shit which really doesn't help me. I'M A HUMAN BEING TOO. NOT JUST SOMEONE YOU CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF JUST TO GET MONEY. so I'VE MOVED ON WITH MY LIFE. if you don't like it- go screw yourself. plus, amanda just takes this opportunity to act like a caring and supportive relative because her in-law works at courage kenny. so I'M JUST HELPING EVERYONE ELSE LOOK GOOD BY MINIMIZING MY ABILITY AND POTENTIAL! HOT DOG! WIN WIN FOR ME. *ROLLS EYES* IF YOU THINK SO- DON'T EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO ME AGAIN BECAUSE YOU LOST THE POINT OF MY POST. IT'S NOT FAIR THAT I SHOULD HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO BE DISABLED JUST TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE WHO DON'T EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME ACTUALLY APPEAR "LOVING" AND "CARING". that explains my mom, amanda, and all my other family members (except for jay and joe- who ACTUALLY talk to ME). PLUS- the fact that i'm ALMOST FORTY and i still am not married and haven't had kids because I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THIS PARTICULAR AREA OF THE COUNTRY keeps coming up in my mind. why's that you ask? BECAUSE I'M NOT JUST SETTLING FOR SOMETHING JUST BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING. divorces cost money and lives sometimes.. i'm not interested in that shit just because i wanted to be like everyone else.